This past weekend I went to an asian pacific american conference in san francisco. I went into it not really having expectations, a brother at the conference worded it perfectly, “I really didn’t have a reason not to go so that was my reason for going.” So it just really blew me away & like i said above, i didn’t really have any expectations, but i’m sure if i did the conference would’ve reached high and above them. But anyway, it just really helped me see the perspective that my culture, my ethnicity, is specifically and uniquely chosen by God and i should embrace it. I spent all of my high school years sort of out of touch, turning away, and it a lot of ways i denied my true ethnicity. But now I know that I can be strong among the majority & spread the word to my fellow asian americans. <3

So now I want to write about my experience of Saturday night. There was a really intense prayer session and I was just lost in deep thought and reflection & something just dawned over me and I sarted bawling. I didn’t know why, there truly wasn’t a certain situation that was bugging me, yet for some reason there I was weeping. & so we had prayer ministry & I was sitting by Bethany, my site leader & i whispered, “whats going to like, happen if i go back there?” & we basically came to the conclusion that I had to pray with Bethany cause I was more comfortable with her.

& so we prayed & bethany asked jesus if he had anything to tell me. & I concentrate and imagine just me and Jesus & he smiled at me. I told Bethany about my vision but I still had like doubts of whether it was really Jesus showing me a sign or if I was thinking too hard, you know? But then Bethany told me she had a vision & asked if I liked flowers? I didn’t remember my favorite flower name so I said tulips and daisies. & she told me she saw a daisy blooming. & yes my favorite flowers are daisies. Which was totally like the weirdest thing ever cause not only are daisy’s are my fave & when u think of flowers blooming like you don’t think ‘daisies’ you think roses. so that was really weird. Then later she asked jesus if he had anything to tell me, to tell me & I had a vision of this prayer card in my wallet that says ‘don’t worrry about tomorrow, God is already there.” Which was weird cause Bethany read me, the final prayer, Mark 10 (i believe) & it was don’t worry about tomorrw for today has enough problems of its own. & in the passage it also talks about flowers, etc. So it was just amazing to be in the presence of God and be reminded that he loves me and he is there even when I may have my doubts. <3